May 13, 2007
4:09:00 PM
Moody...
Very moody lately...think maybe due to the pregnancy...temperatment change like singapore weather...sometime happy sometime sad...sometime angry...mood swing like crazy even worst than those day when im having mense...
At night usually will get upset and sad when gotta sleep alone..cuz wk is forever so busy with his game...he rather spent all his time helping his friends in his "game world" than accompany me..few days back i got this terrible cramp on my neck...nearly fainted i think...but he wasnt even there for me..even after i send him so many sms showing how angry and upset i am..but he simply dont step out of the game room...i guess maybe im nothing compared to his game..sometimes i really hate his STUPID GAME!!!!he keep asking me to play with him..but pls loh after this incident i hate that game even more and i even start to hate his brother who intro him into gaming and also his gaming friends made me kinda jealous..they got his heart and soul and i as wk wife i got nothing but an empty bed! and i even tell him...ask him to pretend at least wait till im asleep to accomapny his friends..but that small request was not even granted....i feel so fucking nothing in his heart as compared to his games and friends....
Than come to my baby...while at times i really feel very fortunate just by thinkng that there a baby in me..but when tot abt my wedding..i start to feel so depress again..like many other girls i hope to have a gd wedding...tot of having it at art museum...but not i can only have it at home and cant go on honeymood so soon..reason being..now is too rush to book any dinner..if i gonna do it anyhow i rather have it simple or even dont do..i got so pissed when my mother in law keep asking me what to do this and that...she cant talk to her son!???why keep asking me..i dont see my mum ask wk what to do...cant wk decide?oh ya i forgot he only decide on games...what else he really planned for us?u know i alway see him read up on games stuffs do research and everything..but come to us...no matter how i nag him...well he dun even read my blog automatically loh...how do i expect him to do anything...dun even try to read on pregnancy and all even i ask him to do so...
Good thing so far...mummy treat me very gd lately..think she finally thinks im gd...started to miss me ever since i move out..she really cook alot of stuffs i like when im back home for dinner...really can feel the kinship in her lately...whenever i go back home for dinner i feel so depress after that that i gotta go back yishun..i really hope i cant just stay with them...
ahhh..so much of vexing...
until next time..
ElusiveCharm [Recorded on] 4:09:00 PM
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